"I noe I had made u sad n heart broken.. but tt's not wat I wanted.. I think I had finally found out wat I wanted all along.. its not her.. wat I wanted is the lian ai feeling.. n I hope to have it with u.. I started gg out with her cos I was not happy n I wanted to replace u with her even though I noe tt's not possible.. the more unhappy I am the more I wanted to go out with her n the more I made u sad and the cycles continues.. I just hope I can stop this cycle n fall in love n be happy with u again.. will u forgive me?"
It's been a year. The last day of November. Things were made final, and there wasn't gonna be any going back. You are an ex, who won't be a friend.
I've had some bad times, when I kept away the photos and avoided looking at them. When I pretended to be ok when asked, and failing completely with a scrunched up nose, and welled up tears. When I cried in the shower or in bed. But that's all over now, and so no more emo-ing.
I've had good times. Traveling with friends, doing stuff I used to require permission to. Seeing my family more. Being able to regain the joy of spontaneity and freedom. Having more time just to myself, even if just to do nothing.
Looking back, actually the good times are more than the bad. So I'm glad I made the choice. It allowed me to see you, me, and the world more clearly.
Right now I'm waiting for my heart to tell me when is the time and who is the one to to spend the rest of my life with.
I do not hate you, for through this, I know what strong stuff I'm made of, and how I deserve someone better.
I loved you very much once. You know it's your loss, not mine.
My answer is and will always be no.
不屑纪念。现在的我，没有你，过的很好。